I don’t know that there is much more I can say about myself over the past few days other than the absolute fact that I have been a little bit of a disaster. In all fairness, I do have quite a few stressful/emotional situations occurring simultaneously but I can’t say that I’m doing the best job handling everything.
I have come to the realization that when I have stressful things going on, I tend to blow other things WAY out of proportion. Things that are minor issues have no business being blown out of proportion. And that isn’t something that makes me proud. While I appreciate that it’s an area where I can grow and learn, I hate that I do it…especially when it hurts people I care about.
I walked in to teach my Sunday morning yoga class today and proceeded to sit down on the floor in front of 40 students blurt all of this out to them. I always try to have some sort of message/reading/inspirational thought for my Sunday morning class but today I simply needed to get some things off my chest and also share with them that we are all human. And all flawed…sometimes more than we wish.
After class one of the regular yogis at the studio came up to me and said, “You said during class that you wanted to sing along (when a certain song I love was playing), at least you didn’t want to scream.” Her comment made my morning and changed my perspective. Sometimes the only thing that I can do when things seem so big and so heavy is focus on the moment and the day at hand. So here are some of the things that have allowed me to breathe over the past few days.
Making breakfast for my family. Overnight french toast at my grandmother’s request. (That is ground cinnamon and not pepper!)
Sitting down and eating breakfast with my family.
Sullie. We spent 30 minutes spooning on the floor Saturday morning. Love this dog.
Grilled cheese and tomato soup with my grandmother after a five mile run. It was one of those completely therapeutic “run it out” kind of runs.
New Sweet Almond soap that I picked up from Whole Foods when I was grocery shopping today. It smells amazing. I love how the smallest thing like new lotion or soap can make your shower experience so much better.
Lunch at Whole Foods after I taught class with two of my favorite people.
The giant stack of magazines that my grandmother sent me home with.
A mango orange smoothie from Starbucks after taking a hot class this afternoon. Never mind that I had to blast the heat in my car while I was drinking it. Bonus, it was a free rewards drink!
One last thing…it’s taco night.
How do you deal with stress? And what’s making you happy right now?