Good morning, happy Sunday and happy Mother’s Day. I woke up at 6:30 a.m. feeling pretty rested so I decided to get up and begin my day. I sat outside in meditation for a bit and now I’m enjoying my morning coffee.
Since you’re hearing from me this morning, clearly I still haven’t gone into labor. I’m sitting at 40 weeks, 5 days right now but I’m still feeling pretty chill and relaxed about everything. I haven’t really felt anything that’s made me think that labor is imminent but I know that could change at any moment.
I really did think that baby boy would be here for Mother’s Day this year. It would be a great surprise if he does decide to come today but I’m not holding my breath for it! 😉
So speaking of Mother’s Day…I woke up with some thoughts about it on my heart. I think Mother’s Day is another one of those holidays that can be somewhat overwhelming in general, and especially on social media, for so many reasons.
Last year Mother’s Day was a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me. I traveled to Florida to spend it with my mom as it was her first Mother’s Day since my brother’s passing. It was important for me to be there with her. I can only imagine how she must have been feeling.
Also, I was over a year into my own journey of trying to conceive and feeling a range of emotions about not being a mother, not being pregnant and questioning whether it would happen for me.
Last week I saw this graphic on Mari Andrew’s account on Instagram and I thought it was so beautifully inclusive of the various Mother’s Day scenarios that can be somewhat isolating or emotionally difficult.
I guess I just wanted to say to you guys today that I am thinking of you no matter what this Mother’s Day looks like for you. While it is definitely a more celebratory Mother’s Day for me this year, I will never forget what last year’s felt like.
And of course I have to give a big shout out and happy Mother’s Day to all of my fellow fur mamas! These sweet things make us mamas too! I can’t tell you how many times I have thought to myself, “I can so handle this kid thing” while cleaning golden retriever butts when they have upset stomachs (golden feathers + runny poop = no fun at all). I know it’s not the same but it’s been pretty good practice. Haha.
I don’t have much on the agenda for the rest of the day. I couldn’t travel to be with my mom and grandmother this Mother’s Day because, you know! 😉 It’s crazy to think this will be my last Sunday without a child. By next Sunday he’ll either be here or I will be in labor. My induction date is Saturday night if he hasn’t come on his own before then.
Wishing all of my mama readers out there the happiest Mother’s Day but I am holding so much love and space for anyone who might be struggling on this Mother’s Day as well.
xoxo
Jen
