I am currently under a blanket with ice on my hip. It’s really inflamed right now. It was feeling pretty okay despite the running I did last weekend until I decided to do a CrossFit workout yesterday consisting of box jumps, running and kettlebell swings. The last time I did a CF workout with a lot of box jumps my hip hurt like this too so I think that is something I need to avoid for a while. Lesson learned and a reminder that I need to take this nagging injury seriously. I have since done quite a bit of stretching, trigger point release and foam rolling and my hip has calmed down significantly.
I have a really hard time emotionally dealing with injuries. It’s not that I get upset that I can’t workout from a physical “oh my god I must workout or I’m going to gain 10 pounds, lose all my muscle and fitness, etc,” it’s more difficult to deal with just not being able to do the things that I want to do and enjoy doing at the capacity I like doing them at. I want to feel good, strong and confident in my body and being injured shakes that a bit. I mean, I haven’t been able to train for a distance running event in TWO years because of this injury so it just sucks to deal with sometimes.
On an unrelated note on an equally as serious topic, today I wanted to talk about the idea of showing up. I have had a hard time recently dealing with guilt around not following through on commitments that I have made to myself and others. I would say that 75% of the time that I commit to doing something I end up trying to think of a way in my head that I can get out of it. That cycle of thinking and behavior has to improve.
I’ve been focusing on these words from Danielle LaPorte. It’s so straightforward but so true. Do what you say you’re going to do. I’m not sure what it is that creates the flight response in me. I have more work to do around understanding that but in the short time that I have been trying to get better at doing what I say I’m going to do I have found it extremely rewarding and uplifting for my spirit. It feels good to follow through on commitments and be there for people that you care about. And we’ve all been on the receiving end of being bailed on. It doesn’t feel good.
We talked about the idea of showing up a lot in yoga teacher training. Showing up doesn’t always have to be perfect or pretty. Showing up is coming as you are and owning it. I have said this so many times and I am still struggling to apply it to my daily life too but we have to be okay with the fact that every day is not a great or even good day. That doesn’t mean we have to curl up in a ball and hide away. It’s okay to show up and not be at 100%.
I always encourage my yoga students to turn and face each other at the end of class. I ask them to thank themselves and everyone who practiced with them and shared their energy. Some days you have to take energy from those around you and other days you have energy to give. We just have to believe it will all even out.
Do you show up or do you bail? Be honest. And how do you feel when you do what you say you are going to do instead of finding a way out?
One last note…I am going to be publishing another review post/giveaway later today. Please understand that I only do these for products that I believe in and use and that I typically like to space them out a little more. Thank you for your patience and support! Muah.