Hello and happy Monday. I was grumpy for the majority of the day. I finally snapped out of it when I decided to stop working at 4:30 and take my grumpiness out on a hard workout. Lifting heavy things and sweating it out always seems to help.
I was kind of annoyed with myself for being in a such a grumpy mood. I have really tried to do a better job “owning” my emotions and dealing with them rather than feeling helpless and victim to them. I 100% admitted to myself that I was in a bad mood and there was really no reason for it. I was frustrated that I couldn’t snap out of it.
Which leads me to another point…one of my biggest weaknesses is my inability to hide my emotions. Not that I think that it’s always a healthy thing to hide your emotions but I wear my heart on my sleeve. Big time. My whole life I’ve been told that sometimes I come off cold and unapproachable. It’s not that I mean to distance people but it’s hard for me to smile and fake it, believe it or not.
Faking it requires so much energy. And when you’re feeling down, energy is not what you have. I told my yoga class tonight that when I seem the most unapproachable is probably when I need the biggest hug. It’s funny because I do put myself in front of people so much and I receive a lot of comments on my perceived mood. Just last week one of my friends and yoga regulars was telling me how genuinely happy and truly myself I seemed in class.
Like I said earlier, I’ve tried to really look into my emotions and why I feel the way that I do and not to make decisions based on emotions that don’t serve me well. My goal is to feel in control of my life and not like life is just happening to me. It’s okay to feel…whether that is happy, sad, joyful, angry…it’s just critical to understand why you feel the way you do.
Do you wear your heart on your sleeve or do you hide your emotions?
I felt like a new girl after my workout and then teaching my favorite group of yogis.
Dinner tonight was a salad with the leftover roasted salmon. Toasted sourdough on the side.
Off to enjoy The Bachelorette – a guilty pleasure! 🙂