Dear friends I am writing to you today with a heavy heart and tears streaming down my face.
I said goodbye to my angel Sullie on Monday afternoon. She passed peacefully at home lying on the floor in our den. Her vet of over 10 years came to put her down. I laid in the floor with Sullie. We were face-to-face and told her over and over again what a good girl she was and how much I loved her while covering her in kisses and stroking her. Dorie was there with me and I am fortunate to have a friend who will sit in pain with me and hold space for my grief. After it was over we brought Zoey in to see her at the vet’s recommendation. Zoey has been noticeably anxious and sad since they left with Sullie.
Those of you who said that I would know when it was time, you were right. Even though I knew deep down that it was time, it was the absolute hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. It was terrible. I won’t forget how it felt as long as I live. There was also no way that I was not going to be right next to her for it after nearly 13 years of constant companionship and unwavering love and devotion. Sullie was my first baby and I will hold her in my heart forever.
Thank you for letting me share so much of Sullie with you over the last 10 years on my blog. Many of you have commented that you watched her grow up and felt like you “knew” her. She was a special dog and there will never be another like her. I was so lucky to be her mom for almost 13 years. She was 3 weeks shy of her 13th birthday.
I want to share more about Sullie’s life, her final days and what she meant to me but I just can’t right now. I am overwhelmed by this grief and need some time to be with it. I will find the words I want to share but for now Zoey, Finn and I would appreciate your continued prayers.
The biggest thank you to Deeanna for capturing these photos of my sweet girl when she was at my house shooting for another project last week. I will cherish them always.