How many times have I said this? It has been a year of transformation.
For the most part the transformation has been exciting and has left me feeling inspired and incredibly blessed. But it’s not all so easy. There comes a time when the shine wears off and reality sets in. And although I am 100% in love with the new direction of my life, the way I live my life has changed. My career is now something that I feel intense passion for. I want to pour my heart and soul into it and that complicates the “work/life” balance…because work feels like such an important part of life. That said, my work requires me to give a lot of myself to other people. By the end of the day I end up feeling pretty emotionally and physically exhausted. I am struggling to give my family, friends and husband the amount of attention and energy that they deserve.
This is just scratching the surface of the things that I’m feeling right now but I think it’s important to share with you that “living your dream” isn’t always easy. I almost feel guilty sharing this because I do feel so lucky for all the opportunities that have come my way. But I am a human being (and not just a robot teacher/blogger/trainer) and I am a work in progress. I am committed to working through this and finding a happy medium.
So. That’s that.
I grabbed a bagel with Brandon and a yoga friend after my 9:15 this morning. Baked apple bagel with honey walnut cream cheese.
I rushed over to boot camp after breakfast. It was my day to assist and not lead so I arrived to find them pulling tires in the parking lot. Awesome. Bootcamp was great today and I ended up jumping in to work through the last circuit with them. It was so much fun! I love mixing up my fitness routine and doing new things.
Continuing with the theme of transformation… I had a transformational yoga practice this afternoon. I decided to visit another studio to take a class from my favorite teacher, Suzanne. I was just in need of a “Suzanne class” today. And also need of the freedom to shed some tears on my mat if they happened to come up.
The class was beautifully sequenced and my body felt so strong and open. I ended up getting into a few poses that I have resisted trying for some reason. One was bound triangle. I bind in so many other poses, I’m not sure why I’ve never gone for this pose but I got into it today and it brought a huge smile to my face. I left class wringing sweat from my clothes and feeling a million times better.
Again, I know I’ve said this so many times but I simply do not know what I would do without my yoga practice in my life. I feel gratitude every single day for everything it has done for me physically and mentally.
(Side note…19 days of the 62 day yoga challenge done…43 to go! :P)
Dinner was extra delicious tonight. I swung by Earth Fare after yoga to pick up bone-in pork chops. Brandon grilled them on the Big Green Egg while I made butternut squash risotto and roasted brussels sprouts. I have had a big risotto craving lately. It’s one of my all-time favorite dishes. I really enjoy the process of making risotto. Call me crazy but I find the stirring therapeutic. The risotto was really simple. I just stirred roasted butternut squash into my basic simple risotto recipe. I cannot wait for leftovers!
Off to prepare for BodyPump tomorrow. I’m teaching the 6 a.m. and subbing a 2 p.m. for another instructor! Can’t wait to practice everything I learned at Advanced Instructor Training!
***I posted the recipe for the Pumpkin Oatmeal Cookies on Bakin’ and Eggs.***